Springtime! Seems like we’ve endured the longest of winters, and everyone is happy that spring has begun to arrive. Personally, looking back, I think my winter actually began about three years ago. It began with the passing of my father in the beginning of that year, and things just seemed to go downhill from there.
I don’t normally dwell upon these things. I tend to be a “suck it up and move on” kind of gal. This morning, as I listened to birds singing and enjoyed my first actual springtime flower garden, thoughts of the past few years just sort of began tumbling out. God’s way of helping me do some spring cleaning, I suppose.
My dad. My husband’s lost job. A once beloved friend stabbing me in the heart. Other people letting me down in very big ways. Our eldest and family moving to the other side of the world. The sudden relocation to Georgia. Missing all my children. Missing all of our grand-babies. Missing my mom . . . and missing almost everyone else that I love. Missing everything familiar. Big surgeries for the both of us. Meeting new people. Loneliness. Isolation. Going to a new church. Driving around in strange cities and on enormous highways. All scary things for me.
Then, as I opened Facebook, I studied my profile picture. That was taken three summers ago! I thought, “I’m not anything like her any more! It’s springtime! Time for regeneration! Time for springing forward!
Time for a new profile picture!”
Slowly but surely I’m beginning to learn that there IS life after Florida, different, yes, but enjoyable enough. I’ve grown to depend on the Lord for things like contentment, joy, and even companionship. He speaks so clearly to me in the gentle quietness of this new home, here in my back yard sanctuary filled with beautiful things He has created.
So, here it is, cruel world, I’m moving forward. I’m letting the gray hairs and extra pounds show. I’m happy where I am. I’ve cleaned out the clutter and cobwebs that have been lingering in the recesses of my spirit, and am looking forward to whatever comes next. Here it is: my new profile pic – TaDa!!